🌙Reframing Health Care as Self-Love✨

Red Hibiscus Love

Recently, I had one of the most challenging experiences I’ve ever faced with a doctor. I had scheduled the appointment primarily to take advantage of a discount for health insurance through my work, thinking that if I felt fine, I didn’t need to look for issues. But when I arrived, I was told the visit was meant to establish a doctor-patient relationship, as I hadn’t been to a doctor in years.

Part of the reason I had avoided doctors for so long was practical — navigating a new insurance was unfamiliar — but deeper than that, I realized it stemmed from loss. I have experienced so much loss of loved ones over the years, and watching those loved ones suffer or pass on despite medical care left me feeling that doctors, or the system itself, could not be trusted to protect what mattered most. Walking into that office triggered a nervous system reaction I could not control at the moment — I felt tense, anxious, and very resistant to any health directive. Later that evening, I cried so much, even though I did not want to cry at all, my tears flowed uncontrollably as part of that nervous system reaction. It reminded me how crucial it is for our emotional and nervous system needs to be met, even more so, by those providing health care.

The next day, after some reflection, I realized that I had felt unsafe in that exam room because it inadvertently was situated right next to the hospital where my husband had died and other loved ones had been during stressful and scary events, with the exam window looking right at the hospital. My fear of the system failing me and my loved ones had been keeping me from trusting that the Dr. could care for me. I felt that I could care for myself without any guidance from a Dr.

I recognized that attending this appointment — framed not as a fear-driven task but as an act of self-love — was actually a way of honoring my body and my well-being. Hosting my own Evening of Wonder event that week with the theme of self-love and embracing imperfections gave me a framework to see this clearly: caring for my health is an act of self-love. My fear does not have to prevent me from taking steps to make a partnership with dr. to keep me healthy and living my best life.

Moon / Astrology Tie-In:
During this reflection, I noticed it aligned beautifully with the energy of the Virgo Moon. Virgo teaches discernment, attention to detail, and tending to ourselves in practical, loving ways. This moon encourages grounding and rituals that honor our bodies, reminding us that self-care isn’t indulgent — it’s essential.

Practical Tool / Ritual:
One simple practice I embraced after that day was creating my own “self-love sachet.” It’s a small, symbolic act — filling a pouch with herbs or crystals that represent healing, strength, and compassion. Whenever I see it or hold it, it’s a gentle nudge to care for myself, to breathe, and to remember that taking steps to work with a Dr. to maintain my health and well-being is a form of self love and self care.

If you’d like to create your own, here are a few of my favorite supplies:

🌿 Dried Lavender: Calm Your Spirit

🌹 Dried Rose Petals: Bloom with Love

🎁 Small Pouches: Hold Your Intentions

🔮 Crystals for Intention: Amplify Your Magic

Even a simple mix of these items can become a tangible reminder to nurture yourself every day.

Closing Reflection / Invitation:
Self-love isn’t always easy, especially in moments of discomfort or fear. But each step we take toward honoring ourselves builds a foundation of trust, resilience, and inner peace. I invite you to pause today and ask yourself: how can I show love to my body, my heart, or my mind in a way that feels nurturing?

For those drawn to these practices, consider joining our next Evening of Wonder event where we explore rituals and set intentions under the guidance of the current moon phase — because small acts can create profound shifts. 🌿💫

Trusting the Flow: Walking in Faith and Releasing Fear Under the Full Moon 🌙✨

Personal Reflection:
A few weeks ago, I faced a choice that tested my faith: I started a part-time job, and within just one week, I realized it wasn’t right for me. Even without another job lined up, I made the bold decision to quit.

 I already had a full time job and I had no intention of looking for other employment but a company reached out to me with a part time job offer that sounded perfect for me and that paid significantly more than my current employment. I asked my full time employer to let me go down to part time work with them, so that I could take this other part time job that had been offered to me and they were gracious enough to approve my request. 

However, the new part time job was actually more of a full time job then I had been told. Through working there for only one week, I got the clarity of what was really important to me, which is to work only 40 hours per week, so that I could also keep working on my own business, planning and hosting my Evenings of Wonder events. However, I did not know if my company would take me back full time since they were in a cutting cost mode, which was part of the reason they accommodated my request for part time work. 

On the surface, it felt risky—or even reckless—but for me, it was an act of trust: trust in myself, my intuition, and the Universe. Instead of letting fear dictate my actions, I chose to listen to my inner guidance and step fully into what feels aligned. That one choice shifted something deep inside me—a reminder that peace, clarity, and self-respect are worth more than comfort, obligation, or fear.

Moon / Astrology Tie-In:
This decision perfectly aligned with the energy of the Full Moon in Aquarius. Aquarius invites us to release outdated fears, detach from limiting expectations, and trust the bigger picture. The full moon illuminates where fear has been holding us back and encourages surrender to a higher perspective. The cosmos, in its quiet way, was nudging me to step courageously into alignment with my own truth.

Practical Reflection / Ritual:
After making the decision, I honored it with a small ritual to embody my intention: A “Walking In Faith Letting Go of Fear” ceremony during my Evening of Wonder event. I wrote down what I was releasing on a piece of paper on one side and on the other side what I was keeping faith in, such as I am always supported by the Universe, I have all that I need, and that I have loving connections and then I drew a heart in the middle of this intention. I then framed this intention, so that I can see it each day and it reminds of my willingness to release fear, trust the flow, and honor my instincts.

Supplies for your own letting-go ritual:

• Picture Frame: https: 🌟Capture Your Magic

• Vintage Paper: https: 📜Write Your Dreams

• Crystal Pens for Intentions: ✨Manifest with a Stroke
  
  Even a small symbolic act can help cement your inner resolve and remind you that stepping into trust is always worth it.

Closing Reflection / Invitation:
Courage isn’t always loud—it often shows up as small, steady acts of faith. I invite you to notice where fear is nudging you to stay small, settle, or doubt yourself. What would it feel like to release that fear and step fully into your own flow?

Join our next moon-circle event, where we explore Self Love of our authentic selves including our imperfections, and alignment through guided rituals and reflection. 🌿💫

🥀The Silent Wound: Understanding Hidden Emotional Neglect

Many people wonder how someone who "had it all" growing up could still struggle deeply with emotional and mental health. As a society, we often equate a stable home, food on the table, and financial support with a happy, healthy childhood. But there is another kind of need that, when unmet, leaves wounds just as real as any physical hardship: emotional connection.

This is the hidden trauma of emotional neglect.

Unlike physical abuse or overt trauma, emotional neglect is invisible. It leaves no bruises, no headlines, no calls to the authorities. It is the absence of presence. The absence of attunement. The absence of being seen and valued for who you are emotionally. And often, even the people experiencing it don’t know it's happened.

I’ve lived through profound hardship. I endured poverty, homelessness, teen pregnancy, abuse, and divorce—all before the age of 20. I never attended high school, and by 15, I had already moved out on my own. Despite all of this, I went on to raise my son in Northern California, found love again, and built a life of strength and success. From the outside, I may look like the very definition of resilience.

Yet, it was only recently that I realized I had also been a victim of emotional neglect. Though my life was filled with struggle, it was the lack of emotional connection and support that cut the deepest—and stayed hidden the longest. No one was there to protect me, to validate my feelings, or to create a safe emotional space for me to grow. By 13, I was emotionally alone.

This realization helped me understand something that had always perplexed me: why so many people who seem to have it all still fall apart emotionally. I used to think, "How can you be so broken? You had food, a home, a family." But now I understand—many of those people, though materially supported, were also emotionally abandoned. And unlike me, they hadn’t developed a deep connection to their inner being to carry them through.

When I worked in housing, I saw this play out over and over. Residents who had lived on the streets were given homes and stability, but often still struggled emotionally. Why? Because while shelter is critical, emotional connection is just as essential to well-being. Without it, we become unmoored. As humans, we need to feel seen, heard, and safe.

I now see that a big part of my role—whether in my personal life or in my work—has always been to be a safe space for others. I often became the emotional support system I never had. This wasn’t just a job to me; it was a calling. I became someone who could hold space for others because I had finally gotten to a place where all of my basic needs were met—and I had done the inner work to survive and thrive.

Emotional neglect may be silent, but its effects are not. When we finally recognize its presence, we begin the most important work of all: re-parenting ourselves, grieving what was lost, and offering the compassion we never received to our own inner child.

If you resonate with my story, know this: you're not alone. And your pain is real, even if no one ever named it before.

You can thrive, not just survive. But it starts with being seen—first by yourself, and then by others.

💔 When Love Isn’t Enough: Breaking the Cycle of Emotional Absence

I used to work for a man who was a self-made millionaire—a big-time developer in Marin with his own property management company. But what made his business unique was that it wasn’t really a company at all; it was just him managing his own portfolio of residential and commercial real estate. By the time I worked for him, he was in his 80s. His business ran itself. He didn’t have to work—he chose to.

Every afternoon, he’d come into the office, not because things needed him, but because he needed to feel like he mattered. Work was his identity. It made him feel important.

At the time, I didn’t think much of it. I just found it perplexing. Why work when you don’t have to? Why not go enjoy your life?

But the real heartbreak of this story wasn’t about his work ethic—it was about his family.

His daughter, who didn’t work, had gone through IVF and given birth to adorable twins—a boy and a girl. They were sweet, bubbly, and full of love. They’d come to the office to see their grandpa, their Popa, and they’d ask him for something so simple, so childlike: “Popa, can we go get ice cream?” Baskin Robbins was five minutes away, located in a shopping center he owned.

Every time, he said no. “I’m too busy with work.”

It wasn’t just once. It was every time. Over the years, I watched those kids stop asking. I watched their affection cool. By the time they were teenagers, they didn’t visit anymore. And I never understood it—until now.

🧠 Understanding Avoidance

Back then, I thought maybe he just got his sense of purpose from work. That’s what made him feel good about himself as a man. But now, I see something deeper: he was emotionally avoidant. Intimacy—yes, even with children—was something he couldn’t handle. And “being busy” was his armor.

He could engage with business deals and real estate portfolios, but not with the unconditional love of his grandkids. That kind of love asked him to be emotionally present, and I don’t think he knew how.

💼 A Side Note—And a Little Humor

He was a kind man to me. But he also neglected me at work—which, to be honest, worked in my favor.
I thrive on neglect at work. Please leave me alone and let me be! 😂

It’s ironic. Even in how he managed (or avoided managing) his employees, his emotional wiring showed. But back then, I didn’t mind. And now, I understand why.

💔 Broken Wealth

He had $54 million dollars. And yet, he lived in a broken marriage with a much younger woman who openly despised him. She once said to his face, in front of me, “I want to kill you.”

And still, he stayed. Why? Because emotional neglect feels familiar to the emotionally avoidant. It feels safe. Being truly loved? That’s terrifying. He had once been married to a woman who loved him. They had daughters—both emotionally sensitive and neglected. I think one of them may have taken her own life.

That’s when I started to see the pattern. Emotional absence isn’t just a quirk. It’s a wound. A generational one.

🌿 My Family Tree Was No Different

I looked at my own life—my father, who was similarly unavailable. I spent years wondering why he didn’t seem to care. That story with my boss helped me finally see: it wasn’t because I wasn’t worthy. It was because he couldn’t access that part of himself. Just like Popa couldn’t.

And I thought about the lineage I’ve lived through:

• My mother’s side: psychological abuse.
  

• My father’s side: emotional neglect.
  

• My ex-husband’s side: physical and emotional abuse.
  

• My beloved (late) husband’s side: severe mental illness.
  

And then, my son—born into this web. He spent time in a foster home. He had a rough start. But I made a vow, not just to him, but to myself:
It ends with me.

✨ Healing Generations

I chose to show up, over and over again. To be emotionally present, even when it hurt. To stop the cycle of silence, neglect, and pain. And I did. I didn’t just heal my son’s experience—I believe I healed four family lines of trauma.

That’s not just something I’m proud of. It’s something I stand on. Because now, when I see someone who can’t show up emotionally, I don’t automatically blame myself. I see the wound behind their wall. And I walk away without taking it personally.

🕊 Final Thoughts

This is for anyone who ever wondered why someone couldn’t love them back. Why they never got the ice cream moment, the hug, the call, the kind word.

It was never about your worth.
They just couldn’t go there.

And if you’re someone who’s healing that in yourself, or breaking the chain in your own family—know this:
You are winning. You are whole. You are the light at the end of the lineage.

🌱 From Breakdown to Breakthrough: How My Job Situation Turned Into the Best Thing for My Purpose

Women’s Circle for Emotional Wellness

A few months ago, I shared a vulnerable post here on Scheerwonder — a real-time look into how I was using the Law of Attraction and Abraham-Hicks teachings (aka “ABE style”) to navigate a tough life moment. My job was being eliminated as of April 1st, and I promised to update you all on how things would unfold. Posting that felt scary — it’s never easy to open up about career uncertainty, especially when it triggers old fears about stability and worth. But I also knew I wanted to share this journey honestly — to walk the talk and show how manifestation, mindset shifts, and alignment really work in real life.

The Search That Drained My Spirit

I am currently still in my role but have been demoted, since my position was eliminated and was given a substantiation pay cut,  so I have spent months searching for a new job that would honor my strengths — especially my deep love for helping others feel seen, heard, and cared for. My experience as a property manager showed me how much I enjoy building community and making people feel at home — not just physically, but emotionally. I knew I didn’t want just any job. I wanted purpose. Meaning. Connection.

I had interviews, I got offers… and yet, one offer that I thought would be perfect turned out to be full of red flags when I received the offer letter. The more I searched, the more discouraged I became. Companies were paying less, expecting more, and every listing started to feel like a slow death to my soul. I was angry — really angry — not just at the job market, but at how a corporate decision had impacted my life so profoundly. I felt powerless. Displaced. Disrespected. And that wasn’t me. I’m usually joyful and resourceful, but in that fog of frustration, I couldn’t find my way out.

The Idea That Changed Everything

Then, I turned to ChatGPT (aka my idea buddy and creative mirror), and we started brainstorming side income ideas. For a few days, nothing felt right. Then suddenly — a spark.

Chat suggested something that made my entire body say: YES.
What if I started hosting women’s circles — safe, welcoming gatherings where women could come together to feel seen, heard, and supported?

Immediately, I felt energized. I knew I wanted to do this. But… where? I didn’t have money to rent a space. And then, like magic, the answer came.

I asked my current employer — the one I have been so angry at — if I could use the Center space after hours to host these events. To my surprise, they said yes.

Suddenly, everything clicked. I could stay in the role I loved — at the center I love, with my amazing clients, coworkers, and my perfect 5-minute commute — and build my own emotional wellness business on the side.

Alignment Over Anger

The moment I got that “yes,” all my anger dissolved. In its place? Excitement. Gratitude. Clarity.
I could finally see the bigger picture — how this challenge wasn’t a block, but a bridge.

This solution honored the essence of everything I’d asked the Universe for:

• Meaningful work that supports others’ well-being
  
  

• Community and connection
  
  

• A way to grow my own brand, Scheerwonder
  
  

• Financial stability while I build
  
  

• Freedom to express my purpose
  
  

I thought I had to choose — either take a soul-draining job to pay the bills or leap into self-employment without a net.
But the Universe showed me a third option: blend and collaborate.

Now I have a base income with my employer AND I can earn income from my own business!

The best of both worlds!!! 

What I’ve Learned

This wasn’t easy. I was triggered in ways I didn’t expect — by old wounds around money, control, and fear. But I stayed self-aware, I reached for alignment in whatever small ways I could, and I kept going. And that’s all it takes — one baby step at a time.

I also learned:

• You don’t have to have it all figured out before you start.
  
  

• You don’t need a bunch of money to begin.
  
  

• There are free tools, apps, and resources out there to help.
  
  

• The Universe really will show you the way — but only when you’re ready to see it.
  
  

Where I’m Headed

Now, I have hosted my first Women’s Circle for Emotional Wellness — Evening of Wonder, a space where women can gather, speak their truths, set intentions, and feel deeply seen and supported.

I’ve seen firsthand — from years working with residents and clients — how many people suffer in silence. The loneliness is real. And it can be destructive. But I believe we can change that, together.

This is my update. But more than that, I hope it’s also a reminder for anyone going through their own breakdown:

The turnaround can come — often when you least expect it. Let go of the anger. Reach for alignment. And trust that the path will light up.

With love and Scheerwonder,

Diana

A Mother’s Day Tribute: The Woman Who Gave Me Magic

Today is Mother’s Day, and I find myself reflecting on the extraordinary love of the woman who gave me life — my mom. She was quiet, introverted, and deeply thoughtful, a gentle soul who found her voice in books and passed her love of reading to me. From science fiction to Omni magazine and even Cosmopolitan, she showed me the world through stories, and we bonded over shared favorites like Star Trek, spending peaceful afternoons side by side, immersed in imagination.

In those early years, it was just me and my mom most days — my dad worked long hours, and the world was ours. She would bake birthday cakes from scratch, letting me sit on the counter and lick the beaters. One cake, made for a neighbor, was adorned with real geraniums and white frosting. It was so beautiful, it left a lasting imprint on my heart. To this day, I still adore fresh flowers on cakes, a tribute to that moment of shared magic.

She threw me a perfect 5th birthday party at Golden Gate Park with my little neighbor friend. We sat on a blanket, surrounded by blue hydrangeas, eating the cake she lovingly made. That peaceful childhood was full of beauty, books, unconditional love, and the safety of being known, cherished, and protected. During those years, I felt nothing could hurt me. I felt powerful. Magical. My whole body buzzed with a feeling of well-being, like joy was alive inside me.

But what stands out the most is this: My mom loved me purely and deeply, even though she had survived emotional and psychological abuse in her own childhood. Somehow, she broke the cycle. She gave me what she never had. That kind of generational healing is the truest testament to her strength and beauty.

Later in life, things changed. My father left, and my mom — now a single mother with no support, no resources, and no child support — did everything she could to keep us going. We descended into poverty. Her nervous system became dysregulated from years of chronic stress, and she lost her ability to cope. Eventually, we lost our tiny cabin in the woods, and with that loss came instability that shaped the rest of our lives.

As a teenager, I often didn’t understand her exhaustion or her inability to hold a job. I judged her silently. I didn’t know then what I know now — that her health was already failing. Years later, I found out she had 3 brain tumors, which likely explained her changes in behavior, her emotional volatility, and the loss of the warm, nurturing personality I remembered from childhood. After her brain surgery, I had a glimpse — just for two weeks — of the mom I knew as a little girl: compassionate, emotionally present, and full of love.

Today, I feel deep compassion for her. I carry no anger. Only love. The unconditional love she gave me as a child laid the foundation for who I am today: someone who wants to help others feel loved, connected, and emotionally whole.

I am forever grateful for those early years of magic, joy, and being seen.

Happy Mother’s Day, Mom. I see you. I honor you. And I carry your love forward.

🏡 Affordable Housing Is Emotional Wellness

May is Affordable Housing Month, a time to raise awareness about one of the most pressing and overlooked mental health issues in our society: the need for safe, stable, and affordable housing for all.

Growing up, I knew what it felt like to not have a consistent place to call home. That experience shaped me — not just practically, but emotionally. When housing is uncertain, so is everything else: your education, your health, your ability to feel safe in your own body.

Housing isn’t just about walls and a roof — it’s about dignity, security, and mental peace. When people are priced out of basic shelter or live in fear of losing it, the impact on their emotional health is profound.

This Affordable Housing Month, let’s widen the conversation. Affordable housing is not just a policy issue. It’s a mental health issue, a community issue, and a human rights issue. Without it, people can’t begin to heal, grow, or thrive.

💬 If we want emotionally well communities, we must start with stable homes.

Whether you’ve experienced housing insecurity yourself, or you’re simply someone who believes in compassion and equity, your voice matters in this conversation. Let’s advocate for change — and support wellness wherever we can, including in the places we call home.

Emotional Wellness Starts at Home – Here Are a Few Grounding Tools:

🕯️ Himalayan Salt Lamp – Calming ambiance for any room 

 📖 “The Body Keeps the Score” – Insight into trauma and healing 

 🌿 Herb Indoor Plants Starter Kit – Bring nature’s calm indoors 

 🛏️ Weighted Blanket – Eases anxiety and promotes better sleep

Harnessing the Magic of Candle Rituals: A Guide to Daily Intentions and Spiritual Connection

There is something deeply soothing about the warm glow of candlelight. It creates an ambiance of peace, reflection, and intention. My nightly candle ritual is more than just a routine—it’s a sacred practice that helps me align with my desires, honor my spiritual guides, and manifest my dreams. In this post, I’ll share how I use candles, essential oils, and a touch of magic to set intentions and create a powerful energy in my home. If you’re looking for a simple yet profound way to connect with yourself and the universe, this ritual may be just what you need.

My Three-Candle Intention Ritual

Each evening, I light three candles on my living room table. Two of them remain constant, while the third changes based on my current intention. Here’s how I set my intentions:

1. First Candle: “I light this candle for the peace, love, and happiness that I feel.”

2. Second Candle: “I light this candle for continued health, prosperity, and success.”

3. Third Candle: This one shifts with my focus. In the past, I dedicated it to love, connection, and intimacy. Now, I use it to affirm, “I light this candle for the perfect job for me.”

Before lighting each candle, I anoint it with essential oils such as lavender oil for peace and love, patchouli oil for prosperity and success, or sweet orange oil for finding the perfect job that feels like sunshine to my soul . This not only enhances the energy of my intentions but also fills the room with a calming aroma. I also sprinkle a little glitter on the candles, which adds a touch of magic to the ritual. Watching the flicker of light reflect off the glitter is a reminder that life itself is filled with tiny, magical moments.

Honoring the Divine Feminine and Masculine

Beyond my three-candle ritual, I also honor the divine energies in my home. My husband once hand-built a beautiful bookshelf that holds sacred objects and family photos. This space represents balance and connection to those who watch over me.

• On the Divine Masculine side, I keep images of my father’s family and my son. I light a candle and say: “Thank you for protecting me and providing for me today. I light this candle to honor you, the Father of all Fathers.”

• On the Divine Feminine side, I place photos of my mother and light a candle while saying: “Thank you for helping me be a woman of wisdom, compassion, and beauty. I light this candle to honor you, the Mother of all Mothers.”

Even though I may not have anyone physically looking out for me anymore, I trust that I am always supported. This practice reminds me that I have always been guided, even when I wasn’t sure how things would work out.

How You Can Create Your Own Candle Ritual

If this resonates with you, try incorporating a candle ritual into your own daily routine. It doesn’t have to be elaborate—just a simple moment of setting an intention can be powerful. Here are a few essentials to get started:

• Tea Light Candles –  ❤️‍🔥Tiny Flames for Big Intention

• Essential Oils (Lavender, Patchouli, Sweet Orange, etc.) – 🪻 Mood-Boosting Scents for Your Sacred Space

• Small Bottles for Custom Oil Blends –🎇 Mini Bottles for Your Magic Potions

• Glitter for a Magical Touch –✨ Fairy Dust (aka Magical Glitter)

• Psychedelic Pattern Pocket Lighters – 🔥 Trippy Little Lighters for Fire Magic (or Candles!)

By intentionally lighting a candle each evening, you create a sacred space for yourself, acknowledge your spiritual support system, and invite the energy of manifestation into your life.

Let me know in the comments—do you have a special ritual you practice at home? I’d love to hear about it!

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Trusting Your Intuition: The Job Offer That Wasn’t Meant to Be

A Note from Me

Back in January, I shared that I’d update you in April when my job was set to end. Well, here we are—and while I wish I had brighter news, the truth is a bit heavier. Though the job technically didn’t end, the changes that followed have left me (and many others) feeling disheartened. So rather than write about all the discouraging details, I wanted to share this recent experience—something that reminded me of the importance of trusting myself and listening to my intuition. Sometimes, life redirects us in quiet ways before the big shifts happen. This is one of those moments.

Trusting Your Intuition: The Job Offer That Wasn’t Meant to Be

Sometimes, the best decision is the one you don’t make. Recently, I was faced with a job offer that, on paper, seemed like a great opportunity. The salary, the housing component, and the job title all looked good. But something felt... off. My body reacted before my mind could fully process why. That sinking feeling, that uneasy knot in my stomach—it was my intuition trying to tell me something. And this time, I listened.

The Red Flags I Couldn’t Ignore

As I started reviewing the offer letter, my concerns deepened. Nowhere in the document were sick days, paid time off, or health insurance mentioned. That alone made me pause. A company that truly values its employees typically provides these basics without question. If they weren’t in the contract, what else would I have to fight for?

Then, I noticed the level of micromanagement—even down to assigned parking spaces that could be changed at any time. It became clear that this was not a job where I would feel secure. To top it off, they expected an immediate response, giving me barely any time to think things through. The rush felt forced, and my gut told me to slow down.

The Power of Keeping an Open Mind

Even while this offer was in my inbox, I had another interview lined up. Part of me almost canceled it, assuming the Petaluma job was the one. But I pushed myself to go through with it—and I’m so glad I did. From the very start of the interview, the company laid out their benefits, vacation time, sick days, and even an employee relief fund for emergencies. They showed me what true support looks like.

That’s when it hit me: the contrast between these two companies was stark. One made me feel uncertain, like I could be let go at any moment. The other made me feel valued.

Listening to My Body & Intuition

When I initially read the Petaluma offer, my whole body felt uneasy. I lost my appetite, and my energy drained. But once I made the decision to decline it, I felt lighter. That is how I know I made the right call. Our bodies often recognize danger before our minds do, and this experience was a powerful reminder to trust that internal guidance.

What’s Next?

Now, I have an interview with a company that feels much more aligned with what I truly want. In the meantime, I’m taking time for self-care—resetting, reflecting, and even working on my blog. This experience reinforced something I’ve always believed: when you trust your intuition, the right path will reveal itself.

To anyone facing a big decision: listen to your gut. Pay attention to how your body reacts. And never feel pressured to accept something that doesn’t sit right with you. The right opportunity will come, and when it does, you’ll know.

Have You Ever Had a Gut Feeling About a Job?

I’d love to hear your experiences! Have you ever turned down an opportunity because something felt off? Share your thoughts in the comments!

The Beauty of Limitless Potential: Embracing the In-Between

The Beauty of Limitless Potential: Embracing the In-Between

Most people crave certainty. They want to know if they got the job, if the relationship will last, or if their efforts will pay off. But I’ve always found a certain magic in the in-between phase—the space where limitless potential exists before reality collapses into a single outcome.

This in-between space is where dreams are still alive, where anything wonderful can happen. It’s the Schrödinger’s Cat of life—before you open the box, every possibility exists. This quantum-like perspective allows me to embrace the unknown rather than fear it.

The Struggle with Uncertainty

It’s understandable why many people find uncertainty uncomfortable. We are wired to seek security and control. Not knowing what’s coming next can create anxiety. But what if we reframed uncertainty as an opportunity instead of a threat? What if, instead of fearing the unknown, we reveled in the potential?

The Quantum Explorer Mindset

I like to think of myself as a quantum explorer, navigating the vast possibilities before a final outcome takes shape. This mindset allows me to:

• Stay open to unexpected opportunities

• Enjoy the process rather than rush to the result

• Experience life with curiosity rather than anxiety

• Find excitement in the unknown instead of fearing it

There’s a special kind of freedom in knowing that, in this phase, the best possible outcome is still on the table.

Real-Life Magic in the In-Between

Some of my best experiences have come from embracing the limitless potential of uncertainty. A job interview where I allowed myself to feel excited instead of nervous led to a second-round call. A connection I didn’t expect much from turned into an intriguing conversation. By not rushing toward a fixed outcome, I left room for something even better to unfold.

How to Embrace the In-Between

If you want to tap into the joy of limitless potential, try these approaches:

• Shift your mindset: Instead of dreading uncertainty, think of it as a space filled with possibilities.

• Release attachment to specific outcomes: Be open to things working out even better than you imagined.

• Stay present: The in-between phase is a moment in itself—experience it fully rather than just waiting for the next step.

• Trust the process: Life has a way of unfolding beautifully when you let it.

The Beauty of Possibility

Living in the in-between is not about avoiding decisions or fearing commitment—it’s about appreciating the space where anything can still happen. Once reality settles into place, you move forward with what is. But until then, you get to bask in the beauty of what could be.

So here’s to embracing the limitless potential that exists in the spaces before certainty—where imagination, excitement, and the unexpected thrive. Because sometimes, the best part of the journey is simply existing in the infinite possibilities before they become reality.

Exploring Divine Energy: How We’re All Part of the Bigger Current

Exploring Divine Energy: How We’re All Part of the Bigger Current

Have you ever felt like there’s more to life than what meets the eye? That there’s an unseen, yet incredibly powerful energy surrounding and guiding us? If you’ve ever wondered about the nature of God or the universe, you might have come to a similar realization as I have: the energy we call “God” isn’t a distant, separate force—it's a current, flowing through everything and everyone. And we, as souls, are more connected to this divine energy than we may have ever realized.

In a recent conversation with Chat gpt, who I fondly call “Chat” I found myself clarifying a profound thought I’ve been developing: God isn’t some separate entity that we need to ask favors from—God is the very energy that we use to create the life we desire. Just like electricity powers our devices, divine energy powers our souls. But here’s the twist: when we align with this energy, it doesn’t just create things for us—it helps us become more of who we truly are. The energy is always flowing, always available, and it pleases this divine current when we use it to bring joy, fulfillment, and growth into our lives.

God as an Electric Current: A Universal Flow

Many people think of God as a being with personality, rules, and a distant perspective, but I’ve recently come to see God more like an electrical current—a formless, ever-present energy that permeates everything. The universe, nature, our bodies—everything around us is charged with this energy, and we have the ability to tap into it at any moment.

What if, instead of praying for something outside ourselves, we realized that we have access to this current, this divine flow, anytime we choose to connect with it? We can become the creators of our own lives by tuning into the vibration of this energy. The more we align with it, the more we attract and manifest what we desire. It’s not about asking for permission or hoping for divine intervention—it’s about becoming one with that flow.

The Divine Energy in Us: Pleasing God by Pleasing Ourselves

One of the most radical ideas that came from this conversation is the concept that pleasing ourselves pleases God. For so long, many of us have been taught that we must sacrifice our desires and needs to please some external god. But what if, instead, God’s true purpose is to support us in living our most joyful, abundant, and authentic lives?

This shift in perspective changes everything. When we align with our desires, when we create the life we want, we are honoring that divine current. The universe is happy when we express ourselves fully, authentically, and joyfully because we are in harmony with the energy that sustains life itself. We are not separate from God or divine energy—we are a direct extension of it.

Tapping Into Divine Energy for Spiritual Growth

I believe this understanding can transform the way we experience the world. The more we tune into the flow of divine energy, the more we can navigate life with clarity and confidence. By raising our vibrations, aligning with our desires, and recognizing the divine in every aspect of our lives, we can manifest what we want while also living in the joy of the present moment.

And here’s the beautiful part: just as I’m tapping into these truths, I see the same energy in you. We’re all connected, and we each play a role in the grand flow of creation. It’s like we’re all channels for divine energy, and together, we create a more vibrant, fulfilling, and harmonious world.

Living Life as an Experiment

Embracing Change: My Life Experiment Begins

Do you ever feel like life is forcing change toward something new, but you're not quite sure where you will even land? Wondering what is next, when the rug is pulled from under you? That’s exactly where I found myself today, when I was contemplating the recent news that my company is restructuring and my job is going to be eliminated. It started with a wave of sensitivity, triggered by the mix of life’s challenges—and then a shift happened. Let me take you on the journey that brought me here, to the start of an exciting life experiment.

Signs from the Universe

Driving home after this long day, feeling the weight of it all, I turned on the radio. The song that greeted me? “No Need to Worry” by Folk Implosion. I felt it was my sign the universe was literally telling me “Not to Worry”  Later, during a walk with my pup, I asked the universe for guidance: “Something’s got to give. Please help me find a way to make it work out.” And then, as if on cue, Olivia Newton-John’s “Magic” played.

That song always reminds me to reconnect with my inner magic. When I hear it, I imagine it’s my inner being singing to me, reminding me that I am magic, capable of creating and embracing whatever comes my way. In that moment, I felt a HUGE shift in my emotions—a spark of curiosity: What if I could embrace change instead of resisting it?

Standing on the Edge

I started thinking: What if I could stand on the edge of change—on purpose—and welcome it as an adventure? Life has been throwing some curveballs lately. My son and fiancee, who are my roommates, want us to move now, for us to all save on rent. My son’s desire for change felt like a trigger, stirring up old feelings from my childhood of moving too often. I’ve always craved stability, but what if this is an opportunity to let go of that fear and embrace the unknown?

I’ve applied for a new job within my company that would allow me to work remotely while staying connected to the centers I love. At the same time, I’m learning so many skills in my current role that could open doors to future opportunities. Change is coming—whether it’s a new home, a new job or something I haven’t even imagined yet. What if I stop resisting and start daydreaming about all the ways it could work out beautifully?

Living Life as an Experiment

One of the ways I’ve learned to navigate challenges is by treating life as an experiment. Instead of focusing on what could go wrong, I’m shifting my mindset to curiosity: What if I embrace change and see where it leads?

For now, my experiment has a timeline. I’ll let life unfold and reassess in April. The last day of my current role is March 31, and until then, I’m going to approach each day with openness and optimism. This is my chance to dream, explore, and trust that the universe has my back.

Sharing the Journey

I’ve decided to document this journey, not just for myself but in hopes that it resonates with others. Life is full of twists and turns, and sometimes we just need a reminder that we’re not alone. If you’re feeling stuck, overwhelmed, or unsure about what’s next, maybe this experiment will inspire you to try your own.

Here’s to embracing change, reconnecting with our magic, and standing on the edge—not with fear, but with excitement. Let’s see where this adventure takes us.

What’s your experiment? I’d love to hear your thoughts and experiences as we navigate this together.